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Salayna Silveri Salt ..four days later 

I’m going crazy. Classes have been cancelled as all the higher years have gone out to deal with whatever the hell was going on. I’ve barely slept and didn’t know anything about what was happening. It obviously had to do with the war. But were they close? How far was Dath right now? At the borders? Past them? Was Rylus okay? Was he with Dath? Would they come back alive? Or would they be burned in a field. The thought of either of them dying has me losing my head. Rylus , I was still so angry with. But being angry didn’t mean I didnt still care about him obviously.  Then…Dath. It hits me differently thinking about if anything happened to him. Because I didn’t let him tell me he loved me. But now I wish I got to hear him say it, just incase I never got to hear it.  Don’t think like that, I scold myself. He’ll be fine. They’ll both be fine. 

I’m dying to lean the room. But I promised him I’d stay. A knock comes to the door and I freeze. I’ve been in the room without a single person coming here. Why would they? Nobody would be looking for me. Nobody liked me enough to care if I was missing. And they certainly wouldn’t look for me here. 

Then. They knock again. But it’s not just any knock. It’s one I know from my childhood. The one Rylus used to use as our secret knock on each others windows when we’d sneak out and get up to no good. 

I fly to the door and throw it open. 

“Oh god” I cry as I jump into Rylus’s arms and his come right around me. 

“Youre okay” I cry into his neck and he holds me and moves us into the room and closes the door behind him. 

“Hey , shhh” He says as I sob. 

“I was so worried about you, about Dath, about everything, what’s happening? Where’s Dath, is he back?” I ask and when he doesn’t answer I push back. 

“Where is he?” I ask. Shaking my head. 

“He’s fine.” Rylus says. 

“He’s still out. He’ll be back in a few days.” He says and he watches me as I hold my hands to my chest and exhale hard with relief. 

“Oh god” I cry and fall to the floor. He was okay. But he still wasn’t back. 

“Salayna, we should talk.” He says. I look up at him. 

“Whatever’s going on between you two. Has to end.” He says and I can’t believe he’s doing this right now. Making me mad at him again after I just got over holding my grudge against him for always making me feel weak. 

“It’s none of your business.” I say and push up off the floor and he walks over to me. 

“It is my business. And you know it is. You are always my business Salayna” he says and the grabs my face and looks me in the eyes. 

“Your father would kill him if he found out. You know that right? And while I’m not Daths biggest fucking fan, I am a fan of his leadership and his abilities. I’m a fan of you. And I know…I know you care for him.” He says through gritted teeth as if he hates saying it. 

“So be smart about this. Nothing good can come if the generals daughter being with a wild, your father wouldn’t stand for it.” He says. 

I shake my head. Even though I know it’s true. He’d kill Dath. Maybe not outright , but he’d send him on some kind of mission where Dath just never fucking returns. And he’d probably do the same to me. He’d rather murder me than have a daughter that would go “so low” as to fall in love with a wild. 

“Where is he?” I ask Rylus. 

“It’s classified Salayna I can’t-“

“Oh fuck you! Fuck the rules! Where is he?!” I cry as I beat my fists on his chest as he tries to pull me to him. 

“Maybe the trachers will brief you and the others , I’m not at liberty to say where-“

“Fuck you! I’d tell you! I’d tell you if it were someone you loved!” I cry as tears rolls down my cheeks. 

He flinched as if he’s wounded. 

“You..love him?” He asks and I pull away and wipe my tears. Not even realizing what I said. 

“Yes” I admit it. Rylus frowns. 

“And us?” He asks. 

In that moment I realize that even if he knew what was going on between me and Dath, that he was still in love with me. 

“I love him Rylus.” I say and he looks away and shakes his head and rubs his fingers through his hair. 

“And me? Do you still love me?” He asks and looks at me. 

“Of course I…not like…that…not the way I love him” I say and he steps forward. 

“Ry, don’t” I say as he slips his hand to my waist and behind me. 

“I’m still in love with you, I always be in love with you, and you should know that. And you should consider that. Being that whatever you have with him won’t work. Us. We could work. We do work. We always have. It was always meant to be us Salayna, why would you let him change that?” He asks and I want to scream at him. But I know he’s hurt. 

“He cares about me.” I say. 

“You sure? Or is he using you?” He asks and I scowl at him. 

“Fuck you Rylus he isn’t using m-“

He kisses me. Rylus fucking kisses me. Now. Of all fucking times. Way too late. Way too fucking late. 

I shove him off me and wipe my mouth. 

“What the hell are you doing?!” I yell at him. 

“You kiss me Now? NOW?!” I yell at him. 

“Stop don’t touch me” I yell as he reaches for me and then grabs me anyways. 

“Stop it!” I cry and he grabs my face and pushes his forehead to mine and I shake my head. 

“Why would you do that” I cry. 

“Because I should have done it along time ago.   I’m in love with you. I need you to know I’ve always been in love with you. From when we were just kids until now. I know I haven’t been the best friend to you, and maybe I suck as being the guy you need, but I want to be the guy you need Salayna” he says and then nudges my nose and I turn my head. 

“I need Dath.” I say. 

“No. You don’t. You don’t need anyone. You never have. So choose me to be in love with. I’m the one that’s meant to be with you” he says and I swallow and shake my head. 

“I thought you were , but you’re not” I say and look back at him and he frowns and holds my face still. 

“Kiss me Salayna” he says and I shake my head. 

“Kiss me , one time, and if you feel nothing, I’ll let you go” 

“My boyfriend is out fighting a war and you want me to fucking kiss you?” I ask with horror. What a fucking asshole. 

“Yes. Because if you don’t love me, then it means nothing. But if you do…you’ll feel it” be says. 

“Kiss me Salayna, just once, prove to me you aren’t in love with me and kiss me” 

I look him in the eyes. For so long I wanted to kiss Rylus. For so long I wanted to be his girlfriend. For so long he was the one I was in love with. I look at his mouth. The mouth I wanted forever. The mouth that would be easier and less complicated to want forever. 

“Kiss me” whispers and I reach up and grab his hands from my face.

“Get out.” I whisper. 

“What?” He asks as I pull back and glare at him. 

“Get the fuck out.” 

“Salayna, come on, it’s one kiss are you that fucking scared of what you feel for me? Scared you’re still in love with me?” He asks and steps forward 

“I’m scared of Dath being out there and not knowing if he’s okay! I’m scared of what loving him could mean for not just him! But me too! I’m not scared to love you! Because I don’t!! I thought I was in love with you. But I’m not! I never was! Because you never loved me the way he does! You never believed in me like he does! You never made me stronger! While you’ve been trying to get me out of here, he’s been helping me fucking survive!” 

“You got jumped in the fucking lockers. Can’t say he’s doing a very fucking good job of it”

He scowls. His face falls after he says it. 

“Get the fuck out of my room.”

“It’s Daths room”

“No. It’s my room too. Because I fuck him in it.” I say and shove Rylus. “ I make love to him in it”  I shove him again. “I fucking scream his name in it!!!” I shove him a third time. 

“Get the fuck out!” I scream. 

His jaw is clenched. 

“I pray your father doesn’t find out how low you’ve fucking fallen.” He snarls. 

“Screw you! Get out!” I smack him across the face. 

“You could never fucking love me as good as he does. I don’t give a shit about my father or about you and what you fucking think. Get. The. Fuck. Out!” 

“Don’t come to me when you change your fucking mind” he says and turns and opens the door. 

“Trust me. Not gonna happen. Because my mind is made up! Fuck you Rylus!” I say and slam the door in his face.